I’ve had two other blogs before I began this one. My first was a blog where I shared my personal struggles and triumphs with diabetes (Sticky Sweet Diabetics). From time to time I would also share some stories about my boys but it was mostly a space that was dedicated to diabetes. After a while it seemed like I was focusing a lot of time on diabetes and although that was the initial theme of the blog it grew tiring for me. I needed to write about my other life adventures as a mom and since I had recently gotten married, as a wife.
I changed my focus from primarily diabetes related content to more of what some would call a mommy blog (Outnumbered 3 to 1). I wrote about my boys, my new husband, my diabetes, and everything in between. I felt good. I had gained quite a few followers and really enjoyed my writing, until I experienced several life changing moments.
You know how they say when it rains it pours? Well I was about to go through a tsunami. It began two days after I was married when my grandmother had another attack of congestive heart failure. While in the hospital they found a mass in her left lung and esophagus which turned out to be cancer. Since she was a heart patient she wasn’t a candidate for chemo so they treated her with radiation therapy. The tumor shrunk and everything looked ok.
About six months later my uncle developed an infection in his bloodstream (MRSA). We had no idea until one day he stopped breathing and had to be rushed to the emergency room. They were able to resuscitate him but he had to be put on life support. His immune system was never really strong since he had been born with several mental and physical issues. We originally had hoped that he would make it home and we could continue to care for him like we always had. Be known to us God had other plans for him. He passed away two months after his diagnoses.
Around the same time my grandmother began to get sick again. She had gotten tired. The 20% of her heart that did function properly was running on overdrive. She missed her baby boy and life without him wasn’t the same. Three short months after my uncles passing my grandmother passed away in her sleep from complications of congestive heart failure.
After going through all of that and thinking maybe the storm was coming to a calm my marriage fell apart. Three major losses in a span of 18 months, it was all too much for me. I shut down my twitter and Facebook accounts, deleted my blog and left the online community completely. My life as I knew it, my sense of normal, and my routine all had been completely snatched away from me. I needed time to get my head together so that I wouldn’t go insane.
Although I’m not 100% back with it I am in a better place in my life. I’m still trying to figure out what to do now. My first thought was that I had to start back writing. I missed it badly. I’ve been writing short stories, articles, poetry, and the likes since I was a very young age. It’s my outlet.
So why do I only have two posts after having this blog for over a month? Why is it so hard to come up with content? How do I decide what to write? What do people really want to read about? These are the questions that are hindering my writing. I find that I’m spending more time thinking than I am writing. Something has to change and fast. This stuff can’t stay in my head or it’ll explode. I’ve got to get it out but how?
Do you have ideas on content for my blog? If you’re a writer how do you come up with content? I would love for you to share your thoughts in the comments below.